Fading Out

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Inspired Rambles

reflective
introspective
again revisiting
this time not so crushing

completely asea
world quite askew
seeing with different eyes
knowing of another view

wanting to hold on
knowing it is to be free
whatever was keeping me
this time not holding steady

waiting for devastation
waiting for definitives
defining what is where it's to be at
without absolution or partiality

calmly
serene
not quite here neither nor there
floating about blindly

unsecure
undesirably
without knowledge of all this
familiar territory

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|11:13 a.m.|

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Absolutely

Feeling confused
a little overwhelmed
by all that's brought me here

Anything that happened
there's no regret
to be found in this heart

Wanting with desire
it happened
shan't ever rue the night

perhaps should've known better
ought to've restrained
until there was less
blurring the brain
warming the senses
perhaps it would've never
transpired if patience won out

no regrets
went passionately
no matter what occurs next
no regrets
only yearning to do again

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|11:10 a.m.|

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rejection

I listened to your words
saying all that I was
thinking and feeling in return

when all was done,
left in a daze
of happiness and knowing
but then fears,
old and deep,
started in

went to you
seeking you out to soothe them
I came up empty handed
you can't be found
you're distanced

trusting you felt as I do
so wrong
was so mistaken
now I'm left with nothing but
a memory tainted
by the aftermath

etching my old fears
into new awareness
hurting like I didn't
expect to at your hands
anguish threatening
to swallow me whole

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|11:07 a.m.|

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Friday, December 23, 2005

Once More

to once more feel hot loving kisses
crashing down upon my lips
across my skin, leaving trails of fire

to know again
the glorious sensations as
fingertips dance down my spine

to once again
know a breath ragged
flush with want; with every nerve

to once more look into eyes
that are full, brimming
with passion and desire

but mostly I want again
to know, to feel
love strong and true, love meant for me

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|10:11 a.m.|

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Sunday, December 18, 2005

Distance

As we talk
With so many miles between
I can imagine you
clearly as you lie in your bed
as I lie in mine

My skin starts to tingle
my mind starts to wonder
I drift off a little
imagining you're here

Listening to you
is like liquid silk
I feel your words
run over my body

The thoughts I have
far from pure
dreams they give me
make me quiver

To talk to you
late at night
before we sleep
I can only imagine
until it all becomes
real

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|4:36 p.m.|

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Friday, December 16, 2005

How?

So, how did I know?
Simple. . .
I never had to ask.
I never asked myself if he
was the right one for me.
He just was. . .

In my quietest moments,
I knew it to be true and. . .
I felt it like
I've never felt anything since.

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|4:20 a.m.|

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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Picture

You're looking at me from your picture
a moment when everything was right
perfection personified in your eyes

You walked away
slammed the door
said your goodbyes without letting me know

You can be content in all that you have
the end was your choice
it was your time

You didn't let me say it
never allowed me the chance
to close my eyes and lock you out

You made it impossible
not to miss you
not to pine for you

You took away my goodbye
left me staring at a wall
left me with a picture

You haunt my dreams
please let me be
I wish the picture would fade...

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|7:48 a.m.|

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Sometimes I Am

Sometimes I am bold
fearless & courageous
ready to conquer the world

Sometimes I am nothing
invisible
getting passed by

Sometimes I am the best
everything you want & need
exactly perfect

Sometimes I am overwhelmed
needing to be held as I cry

Sometimes I am passionate
consumed by desire

Then there are times
I am everything all at once

In the end
I am who I am
I can be no one else...

You must accept me as this
there is no other me alive...

...etching my old fears; into new awareness...|1:16 a.m.|

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